Memories
Nancy Atwell has created a writing course called "Lessons That Change Writers". I have never followed the whole program. I take bits and pieces. One piece I use is called "Questions For Memoirist". Some of these questions cut deep. Very deep. We run through the list of about 20 questions. I say they can answer with 1 or 2 sentences. Then they choose 10 of those and write short paragraphs. This is some of what they have to say:
N responds superficially to most of the questions. I tell him I need more. He says he can't. He is squiriming. Finally I say alright. Write me a paragraph about why you don't want to write about these questions.
Why I don't wanna right more questionz.
These questions cut into my personal life and make me note how fucked up my life really is I may be a piece of shit but at least I dont want to know it I mean I come to school I do my chores I ask to get out of my fucking house is that really that fucking bad. I mean god damit all I want is some me time kik it with my homeys or something else than be the bitch of the house I hate being the one they always give shit Im to blame for every fucking thing she spends 1,000 dollars on her fuckin fake ass daughter not even her own kid doesnt get me shit even though she know I aint got nothin and that bitch is a hoe my own fuckin mom doesnt even love me my goddam dad was never there for me and always left me for some bitch only one who ever took care of me was my brother and other than that I HATE my FAMILY.
R-2 What's something that happened to me at school that I will always remember?
Long Day At School
It was a long day at school when I got frustrated at my teacher because she was hounding me about my candy I was eating so I threw it and I didn't try to hit her but it did so she sent me to see the counselor and he told me to tell him what's on my mind and that everything was confidential but he lied to me. So I told him what I thought and I said I felt like shooting her but I didn't say it I drew a picture of it. The next day I went to the bus stop and wondered why the bus didn't pick me up so I went home and the police were there to pick me up and I got charged with terroristic threats.
What's a time with a parent that I will never forget?
Wrong Place at the Wrong Time
Me and my dad were just chillen and we heard a loud knock at the door that sounded like a police knock and my dad got spooked because he had a warrant for his arrest so the police yell search warrant and come through the door and find my dad hiding and they let the dog loose on him. He had to go to the hospital then to prison for almost 5 years. Felon + gun = 5years federal prison.
What's an incident that changed how I think or feel about something?
My fathers past is becoming my future
Seeing my dad do wrong made me want to do wrong until I kept going to jail like him. I started getting sick of being behind closed doors not being able to do what I wanted to do. Then I read this book that had a saying that said my fathers past is becoming my future so I tried to change my ways and it worked so far.
And then there is this.
L- What have I seen that I can't forget?
The Real Shit
The real shit that I’ve seen is my mom being naked and all I could do is turn my head fast as I can but no good. It was burned in my head. I tried thinking of Power Rangers but it didn't work. So now I cant even look at my mom the same no more. But she still is my mom even though what I saw was nasty. But I still love her the same amount.
More to come...
N responds superficially to most of the questions. I tell him I need more. He says he can't. He is squiriming. Finally I say alright. Write me a paragraph about why you don't want to write about these questions.
Why I don't wanna right more questionz.
These questions cut into my personal life and make me note how fucked up my life really is I may be a piece of shit but at least I dont want to know it I mean I come to school I do my chores I ask to get out of my fucking house is that really that fucking bad. I mean god damit all I want is some me time kik it with my homeys or something else than be the bitch of the house I hate being the one they always give shit Im to blame for every fucking thing she spends 1,000 dollars on her fuckin fake ass daughter not even her own kid doesnt get me shit even though she know I aint got nothin and that bitch is a hoe my own fuckin mom doesnt even love me my goddam dad was never there for me and always left me for some bitch only one who ever took care of me was my brother and other than that I HATE my FAMILY.
R-2 What's something that happened to me at school that I will always remember?
Long Day At School
It was a long day at school when I got frustrated at my teacher because she was hounding me about my candy I was eating so I threw it and I didn't try to hit her but it did so she sent me to see the counselor and he told me to tell him what's on my mind and that everything was confidential but he lied to me. So I told him what I thought and I said I felt like shooting her but I didn't say it I drew a picture of it. The next day I went to the bus stop and wondered why the bus didn't pick me up so I went home and the police were there to pick me up and I got charged with terroristic threats.
What's a time with a parent that I will never forget?
Wrong Place at the Wrong Time
Me and my dad were just chillen and we heard a loud knock at the door that sounded like a police knock and my dad got spooked because he had a warrant for his arrest so the police yell search warrant and come through the door and find my dad hiding and they let the dog loose on him. He had to go to the hospital then to prison for almost 5 years. Felon + gun = 5years federal prison.
What's an incident that changed how I think or feel about something?
My fathers past is becoming my future
Seeing my dad do wrong made me want to do wrong until I kept going to jail like him. I started getting sick of being behind closed doors not being able to do what I wanted to do. Then I read this book that had a saying that said my fathers past is becoming my future so I tried to change my ways and it worked so far.
And then there is this.
L- What have I seen that I can't forget?
The Real Shit
The real shit that I’ve seen is my mom being naked and all I could do is turn my head fast as I can but no good. It was burned in my head. I tried thinking of Power Rangers but it didn't work. So now I cant even look at my mom the same no more. But she still is my mom even though what I saw was nasty. But I still love her the same amount.
More to come...
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